An attempt to catch up on what's been going on in our daily lives

Back tracking to the week of May 9 - it was a crazy week......

The new life of Zed
So Dan was asked to work days starting Tuesday, May 11.  He headed out before me and I put Zed in the crate and took Esa to daycare.  Dan came home during lunch to check on Zed.  He (Zed) was not happy.  He had pulled the towels we had on top of the crate (for drying the pups off when they come in wet) into the crate as much as possible and shredded it.  Poor pup - he did NOT like being left behind.  We can see this in his personality - at least it's not too much anxiety.  He's fine if Esa is with him.  He just didn't like the fact that Esa got to go and he didn't.

The changing winds at work
So we are all trying to get used to the former boss now being the client.  Unfortunately, the personalities are still the same and it feels to me that I am the one the workload from the client comes to.  Fortunately, I can vent to the new boss.  Thank goodness for getting along with co-workers and them not holding things against you.

Mother's Day
Sad day and an appreciative day. I'll start with the sad - my high school girlfriend's son committed suicide that evening.  He was so close to graduating and getting out of high school (where I think the issues were), but he couldn't make it.  It makes you wonder why God puts the weight on people - MC has had so many trials and tribulations - yet she pulls through.  My heart goes out to her.  Even though we aren't as close as we used to be, I will always consider her my friend.

The appreciative part - on Facebook, I copied a status that my friend had (see below) - it really touched me that people who didn't even know my mom or I don't think even knew that my mom has passed posted "like"
Ronalyn Wentz Dear Mom, I wish Heaven had a phone so I could hear your voice again. I thought of you today, but that is nothing new. I thought about you yesterday, and days before that too. I think of you in silence, I often speak your name. All I have are memories and a picture in a frame. Your memory is a keepsake, from which I'll never part. God has you in his arms, I have you in my heart. Repost if your Mom's in Heaven - May 9 at 8:29pm
Michelle Datini Page, Darren Shepherd, Frank Graf and 8 others like this.

Frank Graf Well done, my friend......May 10 at 10:38am ·
Karen Johnson Earley We loved her too. Still in our thoughts- Jo, my mom misses you. May 11 at 5:57am · Kim Young I miss her, too. May 13 at 6:33am

Thank you Frank, Ed, Kat, Diane, Janet, Nancy, Angie, Mary, and hubby for posting LIKE.  It shows you understand.

Present day event = yesterdays memories
So I was driving to work, just like always and got in the turning lane to turn into the aiport property.  Since they have paved the road, they haven't put the lane paint down and the guy in front of me thought he was in a straight lane.  I didn't figure that out until I beeped twice and he didn't go on the red.  He proceeded to get out of the car and came back and yelled at me - "Can't you see it goes straight! Asshole".  I noticed when he got back in the car he wasn't alone, someone was in the passenger side.  I have gone that way for 11 years and know that it is a turn lane, but didn't notice until that night that the lanes aren't marked.  It really upset me - not that the guy yelled at me, but it brought back flashbacks.  That was exactly something my dad would have done.  I was upset because I totally understood how the person in the car felt - so embarassed.  It took me awhile to get over it.  It's weird how you don't think of something for such a long time and all of the sudden all of the feelings come back up.  You think you are over the emotional pain - it's out of your life, but it's still there - deep down.

I was upset until I started my walk into the building - then I started seeing the smiling faces that I see everyday and thought - I am not going to let one asshole ruin my day.  All of these people that I see everyday, make me smile and care about me.  It's nice to like the place you work.

The weekend - decorating, supporting a charity & seeing an old friend
Ever since I moved into the back office at work, I've said that I was going to paint it Capitals red.  Well, it's done thanks to Dan helping me out.  I'm still working on the decorating, but it's getting there.

 

Sunday was Great Strides.  The trip up and back were fine.  Zed used his harness for the first time and did a good job.  The walk was a success with Grace's Aces raising over $26,000.  We introduced Zed to the Ehries for the first time and Grace was in love.  She asked if she could take him - I thought she just meant until the beginning of the walk.  I was mistaken.  She took him for the whole walk and he kept up with her (something I couldn't do)!  I won the scrapbooking basket in the silent auction - lost the Miche purses bid.

That night, Dan and I met up with my old college buddy, Mike.  I haven't seen him in probably 15 years.  It was great catching up with him and I think Dan had fun too.

It's been how long?

Yikes!  It's been awhile since I've posted.  A lot of things (little things) have happened and I have meant to post about them, but just haven't had a chance.  I have notes all the way back from May 12 on things that have happened - and then trying to figure out how personal to get on here.  This is a place for my thoughts no matter how crazy.  I know that not many people are reading this - just because it's on invite only, but the reason I did this was for people (friends) to read and the majority are not (not even the hubby!).  Oh I guess deep down, I wish a was a famous blogger...It comes from wanting to be on The Real World - The Complete First Season - New York from way back.

The weekend wrapup

I forgot to mention that Zed’s personality is coming through. He has started to bark more. Either when he is out in the yard or when someone (usually Dan) comes in the back door. His favorite toy is a rope toy. He will either sit with it and start pulling strings or will shake it. He loves it when you play tug of war with him. If you throw it, he will retrieve it.
When I’m watching TV, he will jump up on the couch with me and lay down next to me. Yesterday, he actually got up on my lap and snuggled.
This weekend was full of house errands. Paperwork for Dan’s work, groceries, yard work, Home Depot, baths for both dogs and the usual stuff (laundry, dishes, etc). The fun things – catching up on recordings on the DVR (finally caught up on Lost) and finding geocache #200. Dan wanted to wait for me to get this one.
Dan was so wanting to have a bonfire and smores on Saturday. He started a fire and I’m standing there thinking and saying to him – maybe the wind to too strong. Next thing you know, sparks start flying out – just a couple. I went inside, came back out and the wind really whipped up and there were sparks EVERYWHERE! Dan said immediately, get me the spray bottle, and put the fire out.  Sunday morning, Dan said that he was standing at the kitchen island later on and he looked outside and the firepit was going strong! He said he felt embarrassed since he really thought it was out.
RANDOM THOUGHTS
One of the shows I was catching up on this weekend was Ruby. She is on such an amazing journey and I’m glad she is doing it the slow and steady way with no surgery. She is dealing with re-learning how to eat and the mental side of how she got to the size she is (and was) along with the new mentality she will need to keep the fight going. One of the biggest things that just amazes me is that she doesn’t remember her childhood. I mean, I don’t remember EVERYTHING in my childhood, but I have memories – good & bad. There are portions that I wish I could forget – basically because I am embarrassed that I lived that way/in that situation.
This last episode really made me think – these women/Ruby’s friends had things they kept inside too because they were embarrassed of them yet here they were, letting it be shown to the whole world. It reminded me that EVERYONE has something in their childhood that they wish would never had happen yet it did and it made us the adult we are today. We don’t know what the adults (around us when we were children) were thinking when we were going through that situation. Maybe they weren’t aware how much it was going to affect us or they didn’t know how to handle it themselves or maybe they were trying to protect us.

I never had a chance to really ask the questions of my parents - sometimes I wish I had or could. One question that I’m glad I did get to ask of my Uncle Victor – about the relationship with his parents (my grandparents, Dad’s parents). One of the things that stood out with me (my memories) was he didn’t bother coming to their funeral or even dealing with the estate. He left it all up to my mom. I knew he wasn’t close to them, but my impression (of a 16 year old) was he just wanted the money and that was it.
I asked Uncle Victor and he told me that when he moved away, he just kind of drifted apart from them. I asked about his grandmother (my great grandmother, who died when Grandma was 11)– if Grandma had ever spoken of her mom. He said Grandma (his mom) wasn’t a very social person and didn’t talk about it.
It obviously affected her (Grandma). Maybe that is why she was “jealous” of me – seriously – that’s what Mom & Aunt Helen would say. Grandma was NEVER loving towards me – Grandpa was.
Anyway, as an adult, now I understand how things that have happened in your past affect the person you are today and unless you want to change it, the cycle will continue. Thanks to Ruby, I am thinking about my childhood (and just memories in general) more – the good & the bad. Random Thoughts will include those memories – maybe in detail, maybe not.