Adventures: The New Normal without Esa

Oh, this is so hard.  Dan and I miss Esa so much.

We heard from the vet yesterday and there were no abnormalities found in the visual autopsy (no turned stomach, no cancer, no enlarged heart).  He also checked her stomach and throat.  There was nothing out of the ordinary.  Our next step is to sent off organ tissue samples to see if there was some underlying cause, but we have been warned to not be surprised if there are no results.

We were given the option of a full autopsy of major organs (heart & brain), but we aren't going to do that.  If nothing comes back on the lab report, we will assume that is was a heart attack or aneurysm.

This just sucks - not knowing.

There has been just an outpouring of love through this - thank you.  The most touching has come from our neighbor, Jax, who is three.

Artist - Jackson Segall

+Stephanie Segall & +Daniel Segall 

 

Even strangers are reaching out.  I was supposed to do a book review of Dog-ma, The Zen of Slobber this upcoming Sunday (December 8).  Yesterday, I contacted the publisher contact letting her know that there was no way emotionally I was going to be able to read the book.  I got a nice Facebook message saying don't worry, just post the promo info.  I thought that would be the end of it.  Later, I received an e-mail directly from the author.

Subject:	Esa
From:	Barbara Brunner
To:	rmcwentz
Cc:
Bcc:
Date:	Monday, December 2, 2013 8:19 PM

 

Ronalyn,

I was so sorry to hear of your beloved Esa's passing today. It is always hard to lose our furry friends, but when they pass with no warning it is that much harder. Know that she loved you and knew that you loved her. She will be waiting for you at the Rainbow Bridge with a grin and a wagging tail.

 

Do not worry about not being able to read and review Dog-Ma. It would be impossible for you to read it right now. Hold onto it and perhaps it will give you some comfort as your pain heals. One of the dogs I write about is Morgan, our 9 year old Rottweiler. We lost her suddenly in September to renal cancer. We had four days warning so I am all too familiar with what you are now going through. Your pain will ease with time and when it does I hope you can read Dog-Ma and laugh at the funny parts, cry at the sad ones and remember every joyous day you spent with Esa.

 

I am so sorry for your loss. May she rest in peace.

 

Barbara Brunner

www.DogmaTheBook.com

 

I was just so touched that someone who I don't know, would send me an e-mail.  That being said - PLEASE visit the Dogma website & purchase the book if you are an animal lover!  I'm sure it's a good read.

Zed and I are trying to get into a new routine in the morning.  Since it's been cold, he hasn't really wanted to go for walks.  I thought he would today, but nope, so mama hit the treadmill while Trainer Zed looked on.

Dan was home this afternoon, so we went on a family walk.  Zed hasn't left our side for the last 2 days, and it's going to be hard the first time I leave him alone in the house (for him and for me).  One step at a time, we will get to this new normal. 

Once again, thank you for all of the love coming our way.